Rewind

Here I am back to where I was at the start of the summer. This time I will really work on myself. I will pick up the tools that are laid out for me and make use of them. I want to be happy; I want the serenity that so many of my friends have. I want to honor each emotion that is brought up and not continue to stuff it back in out of fear of being seen as weak or upsetting the person closest to me.

I want to be able to part of a relationship and not be ashamed. I want to be open and honest. I want something complex without the drama, be it self-made or otherwise. I will begin to clean up my side of the street and maintain it.

This break is seemingly overwhelming but absolutely necessary.